love

i love damian.
i'm in love with him. some things made me unhappy. but at the end of the day, i HATE being his EX girlfriend. i HATE not seeing him at the end of the day.
and now he's with someone.
of course it hurts, aches, makes me jealous.
i just want him to be happy.
i don't want to lose him, he says i won't but how does he know if he starts a new relationship with someone else.

it just hurts knowing this won't be the last time i cry about him.
and where THE FUCK does my sexuality fit in with all this? who knows. being bisexual can BITE YOU in the ass sometimes.

i glance at the top of each new text and wish for your name.
i think about the future, how happy i am with you.
i think about how i meant it when i said, i know you're the only one for me.
if this is what it's like to 'get over you', then i don't want anything to do with it.

xojj